Friday, Jul. 03, 2009
1:15 a.m.
why?
i feel sick. so much for a week of cutting back. i could have, should have, just gone to bed. there were a million different times i could have just not eaten. but i did anyway. and now i think i've consumed a week's worth of calories in about two hours. and i feel like crap. and i'm getting up early tomorrow to visit my family. i could be blissfully sleeping in my bed, snuggled up to B, but I'm typing away, and for what? what does this get me anyway? all these years of endless typing, and i just get fatter and fatter. my way doesn't work. all this shit doesn't work. i know what i need to do to lose weight, why can't i do it? beachbody has great programs, and an easy nutrition plan...why do i fight this so much?
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give skinny_girl more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own
why? - Friday, Jul. 03, 2009
a boring entry in which i talk about next weeks goals - Thursday, Jul. 02, 2009
random stuff * youtube - Thursday, Jul. 02, 2009
tips * things to do * weight prog * other stuff - Wednesday, Jul. 01, 2009
cals * surgery date - Wednesday, Jul. 01, 2009
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