Thursday, Aug. 13, 2009
12:37 p.m.
I'll stop procrastinating in just a minute, really...
it started with a higher awareness email about procrastination. the email said, "don't procrastinate one minute!" and i thought, right, I'll do it now. No more procrastination for me!
then i came right over here. then i went to wordpress. then i started thinking about blog names and how i always wanted a blog named Reconstructing Rachel, because that is what i always seem to be doing. then i started looking into whether or not i could change my username here. then i started looking into setting up a new blog here or at wordpress.
now, here it is, five or maybe ten minutes after i began, and i have yet to do the one little thing i set out to do.
procrastination. what a bitch.
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What are you procrastinating?
(email from Higher Awareness)
"The greatest amount of wasted time is the time not getting started." ~ Dawson Trotman
"How soon not now, becomes never." ~ Martin Luther
"Talk does not cook rice." ~Chinese proverb
"Do you know what happens when you give a procrastinator a good idea? Nothing!" ~ Donald Gardner
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Procrastination seriously drains our energy and our morale. What remains undone nags at us.
What are you avoiding? Make a list of items and then review each one. Does it really need to be done? After you've reviewed your list, prioritize it and start one task today.
Please do not procrastinate taking one minute to write down your answer to this question. Capture it on paper and this will help build awareness, commitment and discipline.
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SoO, What am I avoiding?
1. Exercise
2. Budgeting/ Dealing with debt
3. Dealing with a certain past issue
4. Cleaning
5. Having a garage sale
6. Eating Right/ Better Diet
7. Writing my novel
Does it really need to be done?
1. Exercise: Yes, because I feel like crap if I go for more than one day without doing any serious exercise. Yes, because I don't want to be fat anymore. Yes, because when I do have children I want to be a good role model, and not just another one of those fat American families. Yes, because daily exercise keeps the depression demon away better than anything else I've found, including medication.
2. Budgeting/ Dealing with Debt: Yes. It needs to be done. I want to buy a house. I want to travel. I want to be able to live a certain way.
3. Dealing with the past: No. In all honesty, no. I'll lay it out right here. I probably was molested. It might have been my Grandpa, but it might not. I don't remember a lot. It might, and probably was a certain boy who lived down the street. As a result, I grew up with screwed up views of sexuality. Finding my Dad's collection of Hustlers as a teen really didn't help either. Still, I managed to hold out with my virginity until I was 17, and it was with my serious boyfriend. I went through a brief slutty period in my early 20's, but no worse than most college girls at that time. I've had three major depressive episodes in my life. I'm becoming more and more aware of myself everyday. I am married to an amazing man and we have a terrific relationship. I've never told him any of this (except for the depressions he's witnessed himself), and I really don't think I need to. I think I've gotten all the good I'm going to get out of analyzing this particular issue. I think it's time to let it go.
4. Cleaning (there's a topic switch, huh?): As much as I don't want to, yes. This has to be dealt with, but I'm sure I could get a LOT more organized about it. I just saw some cleaning checklists at Martha Stewart, in fact.
5. Having a garage sale: No. I don't have to deal with this. Most of my stuff is just crap and I can take it all to Goodwill this weekend. The stuff B wants to sell that could actually earn some money he can put on Craigslist. So, I guess I do have to deal with the stuff, just not to the extent of a garage sale. It's just a whole lot of hassle for earning, what? 100? No thanks.
6. Eating Right/ Better Diet: Yes. Again, I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of being tired. I don't want to be a fat old lady with the wagging upper arms. (I loved my Grandma so much, but I do not want to inherit her upper arms, and its already beginning!) I really eat pretty well now. Mostly I have to resist snacking on crap, and learn to spread out my food intake throughout the day so I'm not eating nothing all day and then gorging at night.
7. Writing my Novel: Yes. This I have to deal with, because I'm half done already. I got some good feedback on the bit I sent to a couple people, and I would regret it forever if I never finished.
Whew. That wasn't so bad. There's actually less stuff I was procrastinating than I thought, and my epiphany over being able to finally let go of the past has left me feeling almost giddy. The rest of it, well, it just seems more manageable now.
Good exercise. (Go ahead, my friendly readers, do it! No procrastinating!) :)
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I wrote this in 05. It still applies, but I don't feel any closer. - Thursday, Sept. 17, 2009
things that i learned today... - Thursday, Aug. 20, 2009
things that i learned today... - Wednesday, Aug. 19, 2009
a quickie, because i'm late for work... - Tuesday, Aug. 18, 2009
an entry in which i ramble about a brilliant new plan which will of course change my life and solve all my problems. - Tuesday, Aug. 18, 2009
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